An Excercise In Restraint

First off, I am going to say that this is totally not the norm for this blog however; it is a part of my life that is not posted on this blog. As I am trying to figure things out about myself and what I want to do, I will try to post these things here. Some of it will be just a random rant, thought or observation as I see and experience it. Other things will be of a more adult theme, some erotic thoughts, some my personal experiences. With that being said….

This past weekend was a true test of my restraint and will power. I hadn’t talked to my bf since about Tues. or Wed. of last week. The only way we halfway knew what was going on with each other was by logging onto MySpace and seeing the other had logged on. In our relationship, if one goes too long without contacting the other, we make sure we find out what is going on and check in with each other. I was part of the staff and production/sound/music crew for an event that was held at a local hotel. By Friday when she hadn’t heard from me, she called and was like I’m coming to see you when I get off work and get the kids squared away. I’m like okay. I get sooo damn excited when I see her (you have to know our past, but I guess you can guess). So, I’m like getting ready and then another friend of mine calls and says she is about to come through too. So they both get there within 10 minutes of each other. We go to the hotel room and have some wine and they eat cheesecake. My one friend leaves and it’s just me and my bf and anytime we are alone, ANYTHING is prone to happen. We get on the laptop and proceed to pull up some very adult sites and we are both some very horny individuals by nature so of course the juices start to flow.
I had to exercise restraint this night because it was too risky, meaning that my sister, with whom I was sharing the room, could have walked in at anytime. Plus, once I get going, there is no stopping me! I really wanted to so, so, so bad, but I had to hold back. When talking to another friend (who is male and is on MY MOST wanted list) said lock the door and use double locks. That was an option and then it really wasn’t. I don’t like to be interrupted!! I am so in love with her pussy it’s unreal. I just want to watch it and hold it and touch it and smell it and lick it and bite it….whoa! I kinda let myself go there, but I think I have gotten my point across. We didn’t do anything this time, but there will be a next time because there are some things I want to try and there will be no restraint or resistance shown. NONE.